coping... sort of
it's been over a week now without nikki, and it's been anything but easy. i feel like i'm barely holding it together... how do you cope with losing your shadow? the only way i'm doing it is by leaning on heather and the girls. of course, heather's having a hard time too. she's come a long way from being the cat person she was when we met. nikki had that effect on a lot of people.fortunately, the kids are too young to be hurt by all this. olivia knows that "nikki's happy now. nikki's in heaven." she seems to be at peace with it, and anytime she mentions nikki, she smiles.
as they say, time heals all wounds, but this one's going to take a while. in the meantime, so many people have offered their condolences and sympathy. thank you. i apologize for not thanking you all individually, it's just hard for me to talk (or think) about it. i've lost track of the number of times i've broken down this week (i even have a lump in my throat as i compose this entry).
i take some solace in the fact that she's not suffering... but, man do i miss her.
goodnight, nikki. you're a good girl.
p.s. i'm gonna try to make this my last weepy post. i've got too many happy stories and pictures of my girls to share.
posted by pru @ 11:22 PM
1 comments:
Ugh, I know it's hard. I refuse to think about how I'll never see her again. It's just too sad.
The cynical side of me hates it when people say things happen for a reason, but I think Nikki happened to all of us for a reason. She found me when I needed a friend the most. She found you when you needed a roommate and a new best friend. She decided to leave when she knew it was time.
Nikki was the coolest dog in the world. She was my first baby. I'm so glad you talked me out of giving her away to a stranger when I was pregnant with Hanna. You gave her a good life, the one she deserved, that I couldn't give her.
I know it's difficult, but this feeling will eventually fade. Hang in there and remember she's smiling down on all of us. : )